Being an overthinker and worrier makes this kind of stuff that much more difficult. I think that may be one of my own toughest nuts to crack.
The lighthouse story is plain awesome. Love it! I am trying to be that lighthouse in the calm of this storm. Some days are better than others. But, in order for me to be that lighthouse, I need to really get myself in order. It is a difficult thing to do, when at 45 years old, I finally had to come to terms with my past. That I did not like to do - but I had to in order to become a better man, father, and husband.
Its been roughly 3 or so weeks since she mentioned D. After she said it, I took a long, hard look at myself and did not like what I saw. So I got my own counselor who gave some solid advice. When things get tough, I repeat "I'm working on me" to myself.
So, I would like to think that after that time I have made great improvement in myself and maybe she is starting to realize it. Who knows. I just have to keep doing one step at a time and show her. Hopefully she will come around. But I know that she is scared that I will revert back. The trouble is how to convince her...
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.
