Turning things over to God is the hardest part. People can't let go of control. And will he even take care of it? You have to be strong, and that's what I will do. I still fight with myself to be a better person every single day. I need to learn how to be less hard on myself and to love myself for who I am and be as good as I can. It's a lifetime challenge.
I detach myself more and more. I see a life without her. I have more and more of a hard time imagining one with her. But I'm not giving up hope. I'm pretty tired these days. I work a lot and do so much plus I'm working out very hard. Maybe I'll take a full day off this week and just enjoy my life, the sun and the beach. Especially since today OM was all in my head. Probably because of the wild dreams I have due to medication I think.
Last edited by Complex; 03/31/1504:22 AM.
Me 32 (German) Wife 28 T 3yrs M 2yrs Moved to US for W No kids BD 6/2014 In house separation Confirmed EA 1/2015 (ongoing since BD) OM not ready Real D talk started 1/27/15
