I really am and will be ok. I know I may have to choose to either live in a house that's for sale or to rent for a year; and if that's the case then I will live in a house for sale and pay my sitter to help with more of the chores. I will be creative about solving this problem as well as the ones that came before and the ones that will come after, because getting through this part of my life doesn't mean the rest of it will be clear sailing.
I am so tired, I fell asleep on the couch and it got dark while I napped. Being that tired makes things harder. And I still haven't kicked this eye allergy so maybe the tears were good for it. Have I mentioned I'm super tired? I haven't been sleeping well for a number of reasons, including anxiety about housing.
STBX is a fool.
I was reading about narcissistic mothers and it occurred to me that the woman I saw today and the former ow both look quite a lot like him. That made me chuckle. I don't look like him at all. And there's no small measure of narcissistic behavior in him, just like my parents.
Debbie Ford says I'm being directed to experiences that will help me self-actualize. So maybe I'm learning to expect more authenticity from others and to fear it less in myself. Maybe I'll have this brilliant second act that will put everything in perspective for me.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
