OD - Seems like you couldn't give a flying f*** about me.
I just read part of your stitch. You're feeding her ego with these lines... like you can't live without her; which isn't true.
You're letting her cake eat emotionally. The point you need to focus on is getting your strength up and be a man.
Try doing something simple like putting a rubber band on your wrist and every time you want to talk up, you snap it... retrain your brain. You're caught in your script of reacting.
Me: 45 W43 S7, Foster S9 (Planning to adopt post divorce) D mentioned Feb 2015, Wife served 3/24/2015. She moved out 4/15/2015.