Baby steps, patience and uncertainty

[Underdog]

Bug,

I'm a true believer that our children are our teachers in middle age, and we are students of many lessons. That's why our kids are very different, with different paths, different needs and different ways that they need to be parented and guided. There is no cookie cutter here, and it's definitely not one size fits all.

I'm very glad that none of you here knew me before I had kids (or before the bomb day). My kids have provided me with a wealth of education that will probably continue until they bury me. But the hardest thing of parenting is watching your kiddo suffer with emotional pain. The only thing we can do is to let them know they are loved and that we are there for them if they need us.

It's not only scary to challenge our belief systems, it's terrifying. It's kind of like a betrayal, and we are our own betrayers. Watching myself attempt to hammer a square peg into a round hole wasn't exactly uplifting. The worst part is that I truly believed that more effort hammering would make things work out in the end. I was just too stuck in my mindset to take a step back and see the other options that presented themselves when I let go of having my way.

The one thing I can say with absolute certainty and gratitude? My XH was the key player in moving me out of my fog and into the light. Without his bomb, I doubt I would have progressed as far. I'm truly grateful that he helped me along in my own growth.

It's the old saying... adapt or die? Survival of the fittest at its best!

Speaking of this topic, I don't know if you follow Jeanette Maw. She does work with the laws of attraction and I got her e-mail today on holding on loosely and letting go. It was a good read, especially for a Monday. I'm holding on to some anxiety, and her way works best for me when I let go of the problem and allow the solution to appear.

It's days like this that make me really appreciate having sistas in this cyberspace. I mean that.