Zelda - reflecting and grieving

[Zelda09]

I find myself hoping H will have a revelation and come to me grown up and responsible and balanced in some months. How ridiculous. I find myself wondering how I could ever trust him again. It is hard to let go. I keep turning around to look at that rope I laid on the ground.

I do not wish to contact him today, to prod or otherwise move our ditch toward divorce. Just can't handle it. Not today.

Thank you for your support, all. I read and re-read.