Ay, ya, ya, ya. I feel like someone slapped me over the head and backed over me with a tractor. Then they threw up on me and pooped on me for an extra dose of the downers and to make a statement. Little cycling I suppose. Yes, I'm having a mini pity party. Hurry over. We can devour sushi, margaritas, and have samosa and almond joys for dessert.
Spent the weekend at the lake with x Mr. GBs parents. Decorated eggs and celebrated S11's b-day since we will be on vacay next week. Ran every day and did weights. That helped but it's a down day and I cried a bit on the way to work. Motherclucker!!!
X Mr. GB's parents are such wonderful people so why does it make me physically ill when they say they want me to meet someone good? I don't really feel like telling them that a part of me is envious(?) (not sure that is the appropriate term) that Mr. GB is way ahead of me in the R department. Yes, I know logically he was gone long before BD but I guess it just seems like he's moseyed on and I have an anxiety attack at the prospect of imaging sleeping in the same bed with an um, romantic prospect at some point. Nope. I wouldn't trade places with him for a minute, however, I would be lying if I said I wished occasionally that I was one of those people who just seamlessly move from R to R. (I know most don't deal with their poop and can't be alone. GB hasn't completely lost her sanity) Seriously. I hate roller coasters but I would rather ride those horrible rides on top of the Stratosphere in Las Vegas than imagine sleeping next to someone new. Besides, I got nothing in the tank right now for a R. I read threads where peeps are moving on and I think that is awesome. I'm not attracted to many people so I'm always secretly jelly of people who find many people attractive. Yep, I admitted that I feel envy in some unusual circumstances.
It's okay to have bad days. Going out with friends Wed night and off on our trip on Saturday.
Gotta get to my place of peace and happiness. It's in me....I know it is.
Last edited by Georgiabelle; 03/30/1501:04 PM.
3 kids BD 12/15/13 (IDKIILY. ) Rope dropped Cirque du Soleil style D final 9-9-14 "Some people are born on 3rd base and go through life thinking they hit a triple." Barry Switzer
