Hi old dog. Don't beat yourself up over bad DBing. It takes time and the acting as if is a huge thing You can only do what you can. Have you looked at relaxation techniques? Life can be very tough and unfair but we have to deal with it It's how we deal and that's why we came to this site. We want to be married to our WAS but we need time to accept " what is "

Stay strong mate. Take care. Rd