Thank you all for your responses and for sharing your stories. It's eerie how similar our situations are, but it helps to realize that we are not alone in our pain. Part of my problem is that I am totally alone. My kids are all grown and live 500 miles away. Her kids live by themselves or with her. Her parents don't want to rock the boat and don't speak with me. I rarely see my W and do not initiate conversations. When I respond, I do so succinctly and without emotion (email or text only). I am doing things on my own and accept the reality that M is over, but there are so many memories and "what-ifs" that flood my brain constantly.
I wish there was an "off" switch, but alas there is not. I want to be detached, but not appear uncaring or hateful. I miss being married. I liked it, and thought I was good at it.
Apparently not, lol.
Me M51 WW F46 T 17 yrs M 16 yrs 9 children D29 D27 D26 S24 S24 S19 S19 niece18 S17 8 grandchildren ILYBINILWY: 12/15/14 I discover PA 12/31/14 She files D: 1/9/15 She moves out 3/2/15 D papers served 3/18/15
