Dear OD,
you are really a nice bloke who deserves happiness. I wish I could say anything that would make you feel better. Be kind with yourself, don't beat yourself up.
Sometimes there are no perfect answers to our problems, just second or third best answers. Life is messy and we have to accept it and find our peace about it.
Be aware, that there are people in this world who respect you and feel for you. Again, I think you are a great guy who (again) deserves happiness. And I am sure you will find it (somewhere in the messy life).
If it helps, make a vacation in Germany

Mitch

Last edited by koalada; 03/29/15 07:35 PM.
Me 46
W 45
S16 D14 S10
M 20 yrs in June T22
12/14 sleeping in different rooms
01/07/15 she said she wants a separation
02/26/15 I moved out