I am where you are Kramer. My W has filed for D. She has no interest in counseling or reconciliation. I suspected an A at one point but every end goes dead so I don't think it is that. She is a very hardheaded woman who just wants to prove to everyone that she can do everything on her own.
I like you don't want a D, but I don't think I can get her back since I am battling against her will to prove the world wrong. I need to start letting go also, but I can't even think of the thought that once I close the door she changes her mind and I already moved on.
Me: 36 W: 36 D: 14 T: 18 (05/1997) M: 16 (05/1999) BD: 7/23/15 Separation 01/2015 D mentioned and started 02/2015 D filed 3/2015 OM confirmed 3/30/15