After a bunch of 2 x 4s in my head, I realize I am going on cheeseless tunnels. I decide I need to change. I need to change my attitude towards my H.
It's very important to make a plan of action and move forward with it. I did not do the exercise. I did not think about the ways I need to DB.
I wouldn't say I did everything wrong, but I am not doing the most important thing that is detaching.
I think about my H most of the day. When he comes crying and saying how much he loves me, then I give in. He controls the sitch, and then he goes to his OW. It's time I need to keep my life in my own hands and put some distance between us.
It's not going to be easy, but it is the only way that I have now if I want a chance to get back with him one day.
