Part 17 - Edz, living in interesting times

[edz]

Hi Jim

Some truth there not really broken apart and the holiday was just a capper really as I said accepted that just feeling a bit blue as I'm run down as well.

Nah mr fix it is relatively quiet he's there he's the one encouraging me to text or email w now and say doing anything for lunch? No I haven't up to her to approach me like last week if that's what she wants she may be reading in the bath for all I know or kicking her heels up in town. No idea not my business really. For details its not so much w at the moment as its feeling sorry for myself, feel Ill cold the weathers rubbish and I miss anyone caring, s does of course but not fair to put any pressure at all on him or make him think I'm anything but great (apart from I can't go swimming today - rather not get pneumonia!) So happy daddy scrabble played and card games later on as well as marvel on steam games.

Try not to include too many friends in my feelings and of course not family so I'm feeling a bit of a sad sac, the whole sitch is really a secondary pain if that makes sense.

Yes talking was a quick high and the absolutely inevitable drawback is hurtful although I knew it was coming as I had to be quite open in the conversation we had as was w then she closed down again of course.

Nothing really to be done right now as it was its up to w to make another move toward or away I can get on with everything else but can't fix feeling lonely for a woman especially w in my life simply nothing to do.