I am back, head down but still hopeful. I would like to share and get some feedback.
From what I understand, the PA is over since Dec (?) They still chat but I'm not aware of the frequency and she has lied about chatting with him. She has made statements like:
"I hate lying and that's why I want to separate so I can be free to chat with him and not lie to you". "I will never give him up as a friend". "He doesn't want me that way (PA), there is no future for us".
She wants to separate. How she wants to go about this is to first sell our house, move to a different city, live together first. If things work out hey, we may still be together. I don't really believe that. I think that by me going along with all this, she gets help in moving and setting up. At that point, she is free to dump me quite easily as things are all wrapped up.
"You're not my backup plan, you're my potential plan".
She still wants me to spend time with her, have sex, and generally speak her love language. She has stated that she doesn't love me. I believe that. She get upset when I don't cater to her emotional needs. She throws out hope at times. She wants me to sleep in the MBR.
If we separate, we'd have to move to the other city anyways and get 2 different apartments. I won't lie to you, I want to keep the house. She hates it here and said that she has never been attached to "things".
She says that living with me means no freedom. I asked her what does that mean, and she said that she wouldn't be able to chat with her friend as long as she is with me. I said, you want to give up everything just for chat? She said yes. Other people have told her she is crazy but she doesn't believe it.
