Newbie seeking some experienced advice

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Thank you 25yearsmlc. You're right... I'm trying to forget about what happens between us and only worry about my son's well being. That on top of everything else is seriously driving me insane. I think I've lost 15lbs since he told me and haven't slept more than 2 or 3 hours a night. It's killing me that he felt that way and I'm the cause of it. I can't forgive myself for that and all of the other mistakes I've made and keep on making.
I am going back to church tomorrow and throwing myself at God's mercy. I can't make it with my baby feeling this way. I see know other way of making it through any of this. I haven't been to church in a long time and I can't wait to get there.