I almost asked him if that was what he'd missed why he'd trashed it...
Hey MB!
I just posted on my thread, I've thought about this so much.
Lately I've been reading some of the Bible to my children. STBX and I didn't take them to church, so much of this is new to them. Still, they're young and I'm "home schooling" them a bit.
We've been reading the Easter story and the Crucifixion. How Jesus prayed for forgiveness to those that were persecuting him because "they know not what they do". I know I made MANY mistakes in my M. I had no clue how much pain I truly caused my STBX. That doesn't make it OK. The damage was done. But I can forgive myself because I am human and I am flawed.
The same way, I forgive my STBX. She's no different than I, her mistakes were just more destructive for the family. But still just mistakes. She knows not what she's done.
Already I feel better able to move forward. I'll regress again I'm sure, you know, two steps forward one back, etc. But tonight has given me a clear glimpse that anger is not detachment, and that as we can find forgiveness instead of resentment...peace of mind and salvation is ours for the taking.
Praying that all of you find the peace that has suddenly come to me today, that it lasts, and that we have the strength to get through our moments of humanity that inevitably will come again.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
