Happy Saturday. Not much new... up and down and all around.
I had a dream two nights ago. The second dream I've had about the baby. I was babysitting her. We were playing and I was making her laugh. Xh came and I was telling him about how I made her laugh and stuff. D14 mentioned that xh was wearing a wedding ring. I thought in my head, WOW! I cant believe it. He must miss being married to me. I looked and it was a different ring. I said, YOU MARRIED HER? He nodded. I yelled "SHUT UP!" and it woke me up.
I dont know why I keep having these dreams about the baby. Like I am always playing with her and happy. It's weird.
On another note... D14 called xh today to see if he would take her shopping before we leave on our trip. She let him know that they can get 50% off for a family discount right now where s18 works (He works at a trendy clothing store). Xh said he would take her this evening while s18 is working. S18 told d14, no way, and to go before he gets there bc he does not want to see xh. (Don't believe they have talked yet, but I don't ask). Xh was refusing. (It find it inappropriate for xh to bring his drama to s18 work, he did this last year with his other job, too. Had him paged. S18 wasn't speaking to him then either.)
I overheard d14 & s18 while she was texting xh. They were texting back and forth. Finally d14 said never mind, she doesn't want to go then. He responded, "cool". (he texted "you're cool" to me after I told him to make his own arrangements w d14 for her birthday). Then changed his mind and agreed to take her earlier. What drama.
Then he was 20 minutes late to get her. She texted him and asked where he was. He responded, "Will you chill out?"
Not sounding like a happy guy, but what do I know? I mean, texted s18 last week that he was "Pissed" and s18's words about his exchanged w d14 was, "He is such a baby."
I did not get involved. I stayed out of it.
AAANNNNNNNDDDDD.... I went out with a group of friends last night. I had a LOT of fun! It was a great time. And, I was talking to a friend, cracking jokes and being silly, and I overheard her husband say to another friend, "That's the Mighty we love." I have been gone for awhile, and it feels so good to be myself again. I did not feel sadness or alone at all throughout the night. In fact, I was the only unmarried one there, and it didn't bother me one bit!
I have to be honest about something here... and its embarrassing... late last night, a friend stopped by. It turns out... I believe the intentions were totally a booty call. Nothing happened. At all. And, you guys, he is friggin married. I know he is going through a lot personally and he had a few drinks in him... but.... OMG! What an awkward situation! Clearly- I am never going to be on that side of it. He did text apologizing last night and this morning. But, man... am I a target bc I am in a vulnerable place? Well.... I'm not that vulnerable. Geesh!
Outside of that... I'm feeling pretty good. Yesterday morning and most of the day, I was sad. But, after a fun night out with terrific friends, I feel good. (I will scratch the other incident out. In a way, it was bringing up thoughts about xh and hww... and how they could do that. Ick.)
