I feel the same way errod. I'm in the house alone and the STBX's mother has the kids. I think W went to see OM this weekend. I didn't ask. I hate this house.
It's hard to feel motivated, there is so much to do but I don't feel like doing anything.
I'm going to force myself to mow the yard and make it look awesome. The kids are always happy to play in back yard after I mow. They'll be happy when they get home tomorrow.
I struggle with keeping busy. It's important, even if we have to force ourselves. My STBX felt the same way as yours about my computer time. I can hardly even play games anymore. I quit on BD and don't play much of anything. However, I did just finish a short gaming session and I didn't feel so guilty. As soon as I started thinking about STBX and how she hated me for gaming (and other stuff), I logged off. Still had fun, even for a short period. I figured if I'm not focusing on what's in front of me and my mind starts to wander, it's time to do something else.
Now I'm off to do some yard busting!
Stay strong errod. I won't text or call my STBX if you don't text or call yours.
M:42 W:43 T:14 M:10 S:9 D:5 W filed 12/22/14 EA 12/31/14 PA 4/10/15 D final 5/13/15
