Need Help 3

[errod]

I truly believe I am dealing with a WAW not a Wayward Wife. As much as I keep digging even the things that seem to look gray do end up checking out over time.

I also don't know why she wouldn't admit it at this point. W wants a divorce asap and I have told her if she is messing with anyone, I would know it is time to give up. In WV it is a no-fault state so she would not lose anything by telling me.

Now if I text or call her at night she won't answer so I think she is out. But then if I drive by her house I will see she is home the entire time and no other cars are there.

When I saw W yesterday she is totally run down. She told me she will die trying before she ever admits she can't do it alone. She says she gets up at 4am and goes to bed at 11 trying to get everything done.

She still keeps saying the same reasons why we can't get back together 1. I never complimented her 2. I loved the computer more then her 3. My mom and her were very close and my mom always vented to her. Well my W started comparing our R's and said she is not living unhappy like my mother.

For the first time I am truly trying to commit to DBing. I have not called or texted all day today. Which is very hard for me to do. I have kept semi busy. I went for a long ride, I ran 5 miles, I read, and I napped.

I have tried everything else up to this point and nothing else worked. So now it is time to commit to this DBing plan. I really have nothing to lose, I already loss.

The times I am going to struggle with are when we have to see each other. Tomorrow we have to switch D14 plus we have to go over finances. She has them all screwed up and it will still effect my credit.

I really need any support I can get from this board especially today. I have tried to call some friends but one is on vacation with his family. The other is not home. I still can't bring myself to reach out to our mutual friends.