OD,
I know the feeling of still shaking when you completely lose it like that. Just apologize for the language and try not to do it again. Every day is a fresh start. Trust me, I've hurled my share of awful things at my H too during all of this and one of the things that stops that type of behavior is reminding myself when I act that way, all I'm doing is reminding H why he left and whether he's coming back or not, I don't need to remind him of that! It [censored] being the bigger person and right in that moment, yeah, it feels good to let it out, but the satisfaction is only temporary, then you're left shaking. Trust me, I KNOW!

Is there anything nice you can do for her as sort of an apology without any expectations on your end? The extra time you'll be spending with her next week might be an opportunity to practice kindness and empathy and a PMA--in the face of what I know is a very difficult situation.


Me: 38
H: 43
Kids: 2,4
T10 M6
BD: 1/14
11/14: H moves out