The book of Lou - Chapter 3

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Lou,
I'm glad to come here today and read that you've found a place to live and have moved in. I'm sorry you had a "flood", but you caught it before it could go any further. I hope you have some windows that you can open and possibly a fan or two to help dry out the carpet and mattress. These things happen and don't beat yourself up over them. It was an accident and most likely you had other things on your mind when you were doing the laundry.

I'm glad your son is living w/you and will help out w/the rent. Your sons don't know how lucky they are to have you as a mother. Hopefully he will get back on an even keel and you can find work very soon.

As for meltdowns, let them rip. You've had a lot on your plate and those emotions have to be vented somewhere. As for the photo of your xh and ow...let it go. No one knows just what they are thinking or feeling on any given day. He may have been happy as a lark when the photo was taken and then down in the dumps later. He is still curious about you and what you are doing so that tells me that he still have feelings for you deep down. After all, you two were together for a number of years and I don't care what they say, they will have memories of us pop up from time to time and do think about us.

Keep in mind, that the mlcer does wear masks. It takes a lot of work to appear happy in mlc land. When he's alone, he's probably a bit sad and questions himself...but he's not going to tell anyone that he does. Pride is a difficult pill to swallow. So, don't worry about him...God's got him covered and will work on him.

I'm sure you are missing your friends back in the UK. You had some great times visiting and people to bounce ideas off of. Now, you are back in your country, starting a new life and yes, you'll make new friends along the way. Your next chapter has begun and I can't wait to see how it unfolds.

Lou, you are doing great!