Confused & mix messages part 2

[Cherry]

Anewguy thank you so much for your kind words. Funny you should mention being calm.. Last night he wanted the "talk " he came in very angry. I was so unbelievably calm- maybe even emotionless. I didn't want to make him think I really want him back. Nor did I make him feel I didn't want him. I listened, I validated, I bit my tongue. And when needed I accepted my part on the break down in our marriage.
As usual with a WAS his emotions where everywhere. One minute angry, one minute sad.. Absolutely everywhere. And I took a good minute to think and almost sorry that this man is so so lost right now. And it's actually me holding the cards in a sense.
I KNOW that I'm someone worth having and cherishing. And although I do want my family whole, I'm starting to believe that either way me and my baby are going to get by.
I thought the way he had been he was going to tell me he was filing, but he didn't. We said about staying as we are, not filing yet. Which, gives me time to make more changes to me for me and my son. And maybe I might get to a point where I feel I no longer need him- I don't know.
My heart goes out to everyone who ends up here. But I am so grateful for the help and wise words. I read sandi2's posts from a WAS VP and it honestly was such an eye opener, really hit home and made sense to me.