I took heed of your comments about WANT and NEED yesterday. It really made me think. Although I bad a nightmare and woke up crying, I have been feeling better about the whole thing today. I know my emotions have changed wildly in a short space of time, but I do feel like I am slowly getting to grips with this.
What it boils down to is this:
* I want to save my marriage. * I have zero control over that. * There are things I can do to make myself better that may impact upon my sitch but they need to be done FOR ME. * I must do what is right for my children. * I must APPLY what I theoretically understand. * If all efforts to save my marriage fail, ultimately life will go on and I will always be there for my children. * I really do WANT to save my marriage.
BD - 30TH JAN 2015 S - 30TH JAN 2015 PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014) CONTINUAL TALK OF D ME: 31 W: 28 T: 10yrs M: 4.5yrs D:5, S:6