Sorry for what is happening right now. I would Slooooow things down as much as you can without appearing openly obstructive. Tell your L that you don't want to D and ask them to work at the slowest pace they feel they can.
This all gives things some time. Time for the old PEAs to subside a little, time for the 'rosy edge' to get rubbed off and so on. Many A's combust in relatively short timescales as they are fragile by nature and the fantasy wears off. Not all, but many. It also gives you time to work on you.
You say you have no choice. But there are some choices and control you do have, so take hold of those and run with it. ((Kramer))
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
