I thought everything was okay....(Part 5)

[MCS]

Yeah, I'll preface with saying that I still want to R (not with the person she's being right now) but that's my top priority. However, I'm also okay with whatever path I'm being guided down.

I kind of remember back right after the shock of BD and while the details about the sitch I could have never anticipated, a part of me 'felt' that the sitch would progress similar to what it has been. I thought it would take a week or two and she'd come back, so I was off there. The struggle is that I've known W long enough that when she sets her mind to do something, she'll usually see it through. That's my biggest concern, but that's part of what I've handed to the Higher Power.

TLEE and I discussed this Christian Rock song on his thread, I had happened to stumble upon it about a week after BD. Now since then it has hit 'mainstream' on the channel I listen to and seems to play just at the 'right' time. The song just feels like its so applicable to my sitch. Even to the point that there's no resolution in the song itself.

Casting Crowns - Broken Together
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What do you think about when you look at me
I know we're not the fairytale you dreamed we'd be
You wore the veil, you walked the aisle, you took my hand
And we dove into a mystery

How I wish we could go back to simpler times
Before all our scars and all our secrets were in the light
Now on this hallowed ground, we've drawn the battle lines
Will we make it through the night

Its going to take much more than promises this time
Only God can change our minds

Maybe you and I were never meant to be complete
Could we just be broken together
If you can bring your shattered dreams and I'll bring mine
Could healing still be spoken and save us
The only way we'll last forever, is broken together

How it must have been so lonely by my side
We were building kingdoms and chasing dreams and left love behind
Im praying God will help our broken hearts align
And we wont give up the fight
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