Confused & mix messages part 2

[Cherry]

In honesty, he is so erratic at the moment- I don't trust him alone with baby. I think I'm getting there- obviously this is a massive shock and with the post natal depression a bit over whelming. But I've picked myself up before after abusive relationships in the past (this one has never been anything other than loving).

I think in my mind I'm still fighting with myself that having my h back will make my life happy. Yes the love of another person and what we HAD would make me feel better. But at the same time- that man is gone. And i refuse to make a man define me.

I think by setting a time frame might help me, I have the transition of starting work soon. So I'm going to have to learn to juggle a career and motherhood so I shall be very busy.

A few weeks back we had got to a strong friendship laughing and Joking. He then tells me he has feelings for me- we have sex a few times and in honesty it's been awkward since. He was petrified I'd end up pregnant again.

I've had some legal advise regarding housing, benefits, my legal rights etc. so Im getting prepared just in case. He has said I can have full custody, I feel like getting this in writing!! He took the last of my trust, he's not taking my baby