Confused & mix messages part 2

[Cherry]

H came home late so no time for a talk.. Trying not to read into the fact he can't make the time to talk to me..
I'm working on me still and setting myself challenges so I know I'll be fine in myself and someone baby will look up to. And an added bonus will be for h to look at me and realise he threw away a bloody good thing. I keep getting compliments from everyone that I'm looking beautiful and have a "glow" about me- im not sure about that! But it's a positive and boost to me to think I'm physically looking good, I need to get my mentality to the point where I'm detached and he will no longer hurt me.
If I didn't have a child with him I would go travelling for a bit. But I can't really take his child even though he isn't really being a dad right now.