Part 17 - Edz, living in interesting times

[edz]

Thanks RD, throughout all this as well as rebuilding my relationship with my son and, obviously, wanting to reconcile I just wanted to be able to know with unshakable certainty that there's nothing else or different I could have done to repair my marriage.

Whilst if it proves irreparable that will be a source of regret and upset to me, at least I will know that there's nothing I could have done that I didn't try, wouldn't do, was too stubborn or pig-headed to change or stop doing. That would be the most painful thought of all.

Ultimately I am already a much, much better person now than I was before BD. I miss my wife of course, I would have much preferred to get here without losing her or going through this pain which has been, at times, the worst I have experienced in my life. Still my health is better and I believe I am a better father than I have been in a very long time and a better person and I hope I get the chance to be a better husband.