Errod, you seem to be ignoring/disregarding advice and support from others, then going back to talking about your W. Is there any way we can help some more my friend? I worry that you may be getting a little 'stuck"...

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus