Part 17 - Edz, living in interesting times

[edz]

Hi Toots, yes already the plan, have pinged her back just the time Im picking s up after work and to let me know if later is better to give him time to have his dinner (smiley face) no r text or mention of anything else.

As always Im already tidy groomed etc (just on the offchance, I know the day im unshaved in my bathrobe will be the day she pops round for something! anyway thats a 180 in me slobbing out isnt on the agenda)

As I said got s's stuff washed and drying last night in case he said yes so all ready to rock this evening. Will pick s up at the door with happy PMA as always, sulky EMO Edz has long been given the boot, well in public anyway he tries to dig to the surface sometimes depression has no magic bullet and just have to work it through sometimes, learned that the hard way IC told me dont bury it or you risk repeating issues but learn how to live with it, recognise it and how to channel PMA and divert myself from an emotional spiral.

That councelling and dealing with myself has been one of the only positives to come out of all this (other is of course r with s) no chance of me easily reverting.

As always I appreciate all of you taking the time to help and read my meanderings