Zelda - reflecting and grieving

[Zelda09]

So. I am wondering if I am the messed up one that I am hoping that maybe in months he will have done his work, introspection, gotten his independence and feet underneath him and decided we were something good after all. And he will be willing to look at his manipulative and angry ways.

There is no way to control this, an what I did before - being compassionate, the woman he'd be a fool to leave - I have no intention of doing again to bring him home. Yet, in all of our history, I can never remember my H making a step toward me.

Sounds like a fools hope, yes?

I know. Detach detach detach, what will be will be. It's about time I look at the cycle and quit trying to 'fix.' Just hard when I run across cards and letters that make me believe there was something there worth saving.