RD, thanks so much for your kind and charming words.
How can someone that just read a few lines, just translate so much of who I am. Yes, I am a passionate person. I grew up with Italians from Sicily. Part of my childhood was in a farm, with big family, many calls, horses, pigs, ducks, chickens, and more.
My life was always an adventure until I met my H and a settle down. My passion for life was the main thing that attract my H. I was always full of happiness, I laugh a lot, I am never tired to go out and have fun. I like music, dance. And I am very, very girl. I like my nails done, my hair nice, makeup on my face. I like to dress like a girl and love all the girl stuff...laces, things for the hair, jewelry, you name it.
But life took a toll on me, I had my kids, decided to live my life for my family and with time I did not care about my crazy side. My H is not someone full of life, he does not have fire inside his heart as I do.
Many times I would ask him to go for a walk, bike, dance on friday night and he was always pretty tired. He is a man that always traveled, so many times I was left alone with the kids. Loneliness became a part of my life. I always had friends, but it was not him there.
I think I love my H, but the truth is that I don't like his laziness, his lifeless behavior. Sometimes throughout many years, I told him many times that I was empty, that he would take it all and never give it back. I think he never understood what I meant with that.
And your are very right, Pink needs to take care after Pink, and I need to use all my passion towards myself, and be kind and gentle to myself. And let myself dream. Pink is getting ready to fly high. I feel the desire to do something good for myself.
I was just thinking today, what is the sense in thinking to get back with this idiot that is still my H, when I know he is going to meet with his GF for a week? I am getting kind of disgusted about this whole thing.
There is no moral value in any of this. But, you are right in this area too. I need to get some peace around me, some quiet in my head, some calm in my soul. I need to review and try to figure what I really want.
Well, at least one thing I know now... I want to go to Ireland. As a matter of fact, there is a family that we are very good friends with and the couple is from Ireland. They live very close to my house.
One thing I now, I probably already used more then half of my life. So life is short, life is beautiful and I want to be happy. I will take myself from my H life, I need this for my own good. I don't know where it will take me, but I had enough of his dirty games.
He can live his new journey, and I will try to find mine.
How can you know me so well? How can you read me so well?
Hey RD, do you have a dog?
PS.: Talking about bikes, I have two patients that lost one of their legs because a bad bike accident. It's scary. The guy that we put a prosthetic leg still rides a bike. I tease him that if we put a second prosthetic legs, maybe we could install a permanent leg to the bike. We laugh about it.
