Mr. Bond - I found GAL to be nothing more than a distraction for me this winter. Even now. My mood is lightened and I am diverted when I'm out and enjoying weather, movement, people...but I don't think it's exactly the same as detaching from the constant turbulence inside my head. Just a cover, something that needs higher priority, until it goes back.
I've tried the stop sign thing. Tried the change the channel. Tried meditating - and while that used to work before, I am allowing panic and grief to override the breath focus. They are not only intrusive thoughts, but they are kicking the door in.
I told my roommate last night that for the first time I see the appeal of drugs. The off switch in the brain, feelings.
You guys speak of deciding to get off the merry-go-round - what was the significant attitude or phrase or action that let you 'let it go' and decide it just wasn't worth your thoughts anymore?
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
