I know it's hard Errod. But the more you can do for yourself, the better you'll be able to get her out of your mind.

Was it you who asked for cheap GAL options a while ago? Did you follow any of those up? The more you can do (and you might have to make yourself do them at first) the more you see that there is a life out there beyond your M.

And the fact is - sorry to be blunt - you have no M right now. You have been fired as spouse to your W.

You also mention the co-dependence. Would you want to return to such an enmeshed R again? Something to think about there. And they always say on these forums, the WAS is never going to return to the same M. Something has to change...

I truly understand how hard this feels. But if you can start moving painfully forward and shift the focus away from your W, you will feel the benefit of this.

Good luck my friend...(((Errod)))

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus