Errod, I still think you're focusing and writing waaay too much about your W. Can you try and shift focus? I know how hard that is - but lets hear more about what you are doing for you - whatever your W might be doing.

You mention above that your W is 'hard to read' - my advice is - Don't even go there right now!

Hang on in there my friend....

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus