Errod, I'm sorry you're feeling hopeless. My experience of reading sitches on the forum is that many (most?) get pretty dire before things start to improve. I think 'facing the end' is often a needed step in order for things to turn. Of course they may not turn at all...time will tell Errod.
One thing I will say is best not to try and analyse what your W is doing and why. It's best to keep the focus on you and your D as much as you can....
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
