The only thing we can do in this world is accept the call for change and do it on our own terms. This door closed (like many others in this process, right?). So pick out a new door that works for you.
So when I read through and was going to respond, I found Bets had done it for me.
Life is full of things that are unfair, all we can do is grieve whatever and move on.
rpp, I think you're grieving this loss and that's good. I don't think you'll get stuck here and remember, we don't know what's ahead of us.
Perhaps something even better is in your future.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss