Confused & mix messages part 2

[Cherry]

Well that's what he is really pushing- joint counselling.. Maybe I should see the MC alone first and explain my feelings.
Keeping busy again today, h was out late again. I had long since gone to bed- couldn't sleep though- he came in at the small hours. He is missing out so much on baby's development which is hurtful. Trying to follow hearts advise of that is something he needs to deal with- I can't change or influence this.
I get a feeling something is going to happen soon, he is out almost every night now and all day weekends so me and baby never see him.
Planning days out for me and baby. I'm going to make sure I enjoy the 1st year of his life and make memories for us both