Susana (9) - I'm tired

[mahhhty]

Enjoy Romania! Live it up! Pura Vida!

[susana4]

Susana,

Awww...Bambi and Thumper together. Hope your bum is recovered by now..

If you don't mind answering more questions (feel free to ignore me if you do), what do you think brought about the "wobble" you mentioned you had after you and Ms W moved in together and how did you steady yourself again?

I came to terms with my parents' D after having several talks with my late father about it and I have pretty much come to a full circle. And completely out of my MLC! Thank goodness.

In looking back, the wobbles came during our first year living together. Period of adjustment...ya know. How did I steady myself? That's a good question. I'd like to think that Ms. Wonka had a big hand in it too for she is an incredibly even-keeled person who fought fair...no ugly or drawn-out fights. Somehow we managed to pull through the first-year wobbles.


Bon Voyage!!

Thanks Wonka!! My bum is mostly better

Thanks for answering my questions. I was curious what it felt like for you and how you stabilised, I could be completely wrong but I think it's what my H is going through (perhaps along with some fears of not being good enough). I probably have not been even-keeled in the past but I am a lot more now.

[susana4]

Thanks mahhhty!

[Vanilla]

I hope the sit upon can take the journey.

I am curious about Romania, it's cheeeese and wine.

I believe the scenery is gorgeous. The occasional post would be good.....


V

[susana4]

Thanks V. I'm trying to limit my internet time (just because I like to occasionally unplug :)) but I will check in here and there

Romania is beautiful! Took a train through the Carpathian Mountains today...Wow. Stunning. The architecture is amazing too. Will go see a castle tomorrow and then I'll be staying in a medieval citadel!

Have been journaling a lot on the train. It's felt really good.

[Complex]

Yay. Enjoy your time. Travelling is the best.
The more you travel, the less you know!

[Vanilla]

I hope there are windows!

V

[Zelda09]

I wish this forum could do pictures - sounds like an amazing trip. Hope you have a great time and enjoy your fab self.

[susana4]

I wish I could share pictures of all the beautiful things I've seen.

If you google "bran castle" you'll see where I was yesterday. Also "sighisoara", it's a fortress town I visited. Stunning!

I have been sleeping 12 hours a night. Think I'm catching up on all the sleep I've lost these past few months. I have dreamed of H every night on my trip and mornings are a little hard, but otherwise I feel more peaceful than I have in months.

I love travel, because it always makes me feel like myself again. Like it strips back all the layers and leaves just the core of who I am.

H texted yesterday, asking if I was having fun and finding good food, and also asking when I was getting back (he claimed I didn't tell him). Ha! I definitely told him (because I distinctly recall him asking which day I'd be back) but also he has a copy of my plane tickets/boarding pass in his email because he printed them for me. Don't know if he is really out of it or it was just a pretext to text me.

I think this trip is the most healing thing I've done since BD.

Whatever happens, the world is waiting for me to explore it, with or without H.

[Mozza]

I was in Romania almost 20 years ago and I remember having a moment of grace, in the front seat of a bus, going through Transylvania and watching the winter landscape while listening to Songs of Distant Earth by Mike Oldfield. It was beautiful, hilly and curvy. I'm so glad the mad driver didn't kill us all.