Thats exactly it ... I mean sure she said everything I wanted to hear in a way .. but also said things that made my ears pop up.
When she brought S out and promised him, it felt like she was talking to me but making it seem she was talking to him. That promise she made him is something else she will have to deal with if she breaks it, not so sure my little 8 year old bought it honestly. All I could think in my head was ...wow .. ok .. believe nothing of what they say and only 50% of what they do. Kept me from jumping at it ... this happened similarly this time last year after her STD testing, and I jumped at the chance to have my W and M back .. disaster followed. Makes me wonder why there was not a brighter neon sign pointing me to this forum all that time.
So yeah I am actually still good, in a place of strength, still focused on me and S. I understand your concern for the confession thing, but for me that was a seed, I told her I was the last person that should ever preach to someone but made sure she knew it was only a suggestion that I felt would help her ... regardless of our M, .... something that if she actually did it I can trust that more than words at this point, because very little that she said I feel I can trust, ... this MLC has a way of making the LBS a touch cynical after some time.
