NewPand,

You say you want a D so you can be done with it.

Problem with that approach is that you've not done any hard work on yourself then you'll bring those same exact problems to your next R. You must put the focus on YOU and really work on your bad patterns, issues, and issues. If you don't do the heavy lifting, then you'll just repeat the same thing in your next R.

And how about that job search? How's it going?