Worked from home this morning. Need to finish off the project I've been working on as a freelancer before I get started on the multiple projects I'll have in the contracted role.

It's nice to feel more engaged and interested in work again. The work I've been doing past 7/8 months has been pretty 'routine' for me. Enough to pay the bills, and I was glad to have a low challenge period. But some of the stuff I'll be doing going forwards is going to stretch me more and I'm looking forward to that.

Absolute silence from H since I told him I loved him and D wouldn't be my choice, and he said he needed to think about things. Today I felt a bit annoyed that he just hadn't 'bothered' (mindreading) to get back to me.

Then I thought, Hmm - this is my problem. I have an 'expectation' that he will get back to me, because he said he needed a week to think and it's been over a week. So, I'm just trying to let go of the 'expectation' that he will respond - just need to keep moving forwards really....

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus