Your kind words have really touched my heart. I just wished I could have helped you in saving the M. I believe you are saving yourself. I have watched you handle yourself with manliness and dignity.
Yes, it is terribly sad To see the death of a M. You will need to mourn. You are going to have a good life. And who knows what may around the corner? Take your time. Let your wounds heal. I am so sorry.
Yes, please let us hear from you. ((Phunguy))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!