Part 17 - Edz, living in interesting times

[edz]

Part 16 is about to lock so begining part 17.

Well...that was a day.

Both s and I slept in this morning once I woke up popped in to check on him and he'd only just woken up. Did my morning exercises, showered and got myself sorted and dressed.

S was blue again this morning so we edged into the day. Mid morning w texted me to see what the plans were for today. Said this was a relaxed day nothing much planned maybe a day out with S. She texted back well if there was an option for caffeine or food let her know (paraphrasing). Arranged to pick her up at lunchtime and we headed out played minigolf and then down to the seafront and had a nice lunch together. At least one I noticed w looked relaxed and calm and she did slip and say darling a couple of times, didnt make a big thing out of it but it did make me feel happy have to admit.

Afterwards s's stuff was still at the house so we headed back here. s headed upstairs as he wanted to watch a few youtube videos on the tablet. W took up the offer of a glass of wine, poured her a large glass since she wasnt driving and we we talked, a lot.

We covered a lot of what had happened, w among other things said when she left she had no intention whatsoever of seeing me ever again, that if she hadnt seen me again it would have been fine. Thats not the case now, she cant say she's counting us back in but she no longer counts us out. We discussed a lot of issues we'd had the problems I brought to our marriage and how I got there.

W opened up to me on what us reuniting would mean to her and her relation to or possibly the end of her relationship with her mother and a lot more I wont bring up here. It was very very open w several times said "well if were being frank and open" and then talked more, I validated my soul out and never once argued, everything she brought up was something I'd dealt with in councelling and knew was an issue once or twice I think I suprised her with being frank and commenting I'd known this was something she'd had an issue with.

It was very clear that communications had been responsible for some (not all) of our issues, some down to MIl and w's relationship, w agreed mil is a narcisist and the issues its raised and the painful choice she feels she now has due to confiding in her mum in the early days of our issues and some simply down to my depression and failing to have help when it could have seen off some serious issues and damage to my m and relation with s.

W confirmed the changes in me are why we are talking now.

Eventually w had to go back as her cat needed feeding. I tried to ensure w felt comfortable and at no point stressed. So took both s and w back and was invited in. W had some work to still do on her emails regarding her work so I helped out bathing s reading to him and helping getting him ready for bed, tucked him in and settled him. Helped soothe him he said to me he's very happy mummy is happier being around me, in terms he could be happy with said Im very glad of that but we still have a long road and n one can say where we will end up but mummy and daddy will always love him and take care of him. He settled and went to sleep.

I asked w shall I go she was happy for some company so I ended up staying while we watched some TV her in the armchair me on the sofa while we chatted about the show and about us in a roundabout way.

Afterward headed off home, checked in and found while w was playing minigolf she'd posted on facebook she was playing minigolf and feeling relaxed. Texted her a thanks for today and hope she sleeps well I'll catch up with her soon.

So, all in all, a busy day.

Let's see what happens next.

Thanks all.