hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

At this point, she will not leave on her own. She says she won't.

I can't physically force her out. I can try to make it miserable for her here (makes me look like an ass to the kids). I can change the locks while she's out (maybe makes me look like a psychopath to the kids - sounds like it would be traumatizing for them).

I hate the idea of giving up and leaving, but maybe it's best for the kids.

I am ready to find/see a Lawyer, - I have not done so yet. I also never fully followed through with separating my finances from hers. This is a must tomorrow (new bank account at a different bank - new direct deposit).
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She left with D15 and on her way out she came into my office and said "sorry I haven't talked to you - I am not avoiding you"

I said, I am not avoiding you either, I just don't think we have anything to talk about at this point. I don't want to talk about this.

She looked confused (what? - u-turn is saying he doesn't want to talk about this?)

She asked "what do you want me to do?"

I told her she could do anything she wants - it is not my business any more.

She looked at me, started to cry and said "I love you u-turn g-damnit" (I'm not sure that I have ever not responded to an ILY - I just couldn't)

I looked at her with my shocked face - I could not believe what I was hearing and I'm afraid I showed it. I did not respond.

She left - I do suspect she is going to try talking to me later again.

I had lunch with S17, he knows something is happening, knows we are hurting (the whole family is hurting), but he is all on-board with the playful super-mom thing too. I would be too if I didn't know it was a ruse.