Chances are...if I have a history of chronic depression, my mother has a history of chronic depression, both grandmothers have a history of chronic depression and...we all know Smokey suffers from chronic depression...well, then, my kids will likely struggle with chronic depression.
I want to have the answer for them if it strikes them. I want to, at least, have found the path outta hell if they find themselves there. If I have the tools, then, God willing, they will be able to lead long, productive lives.
Look at your depression as a stranger or observer. Is it cyclical? What are your triggers? Sun exposure is a biggie for me? I also get stuck when I feel rejected or a series of disappointments. I sorta snap into default where I remember and re-experience past disappointments and rejection.
Tad, you know yourself better than anyone. But, don't buy into the negative depression talk in your head. Some brains are great at deepening a depression...I happen to have one of those. Push those thoughts away and figure out what makes the depression lift. You did seem better when you saw the therapist.
And, maybe the rats need to go. Why have you chosen a pet with such a short lifespan? Why put yourself through that type of grief?
NOT JUDGING, just wondering. Look at your life as an observer.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
