hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

Whiny complaint:

Caught myself crying this morning while researching living options - I haven't cried in a long time. It's like a new bomb drop.

I think I see how this is going to go. I am going to be the a-hole that gives up and breaks the family. While I am planning my future, now she is super-mom-ing and best friend-ing the kids (which I see as more manipulation of them and me).

I have shut down talks with W. I told her that I will not move forward with her - this will not work (that's it).

Should I try to compete with her for the attention of the kids? It seems futile right now.