Be Strong and focus on you and your kids. Remember you are working at making yourself the man you want to be (with or without her), the one only a woman would be a fool to leave. Have you started working on your goals, keeping track of your 180s, what are you doing for GAL? Make those changes for YOU. Make sure you are being true to yourself... we LBSs need to make sure first of all that we are being honest with ourselves...otherwise how in the world should we expect anyone, especially our WASs, to be honest with us. Learn to Respect yourself...this includes all of what everyone here has been repeating including learning to set healthy boundaries and learning to become a man you can look at in the mirror every morning and be able to smile At. None of any of the DB principals will make a difference if you cannot even respect yourself. Build from there.
I just stopped in to say stay strong and somehow the rest spewed out of the keyboard....so sorry if I am out of line with your sich...sounds similar to mine so thought I'd post. I will tell you with absolute certainty that once your self respect starts to improve and your confidence in yourself begins to return, people around you will start to take notice.