MLC Divorce and Cancer

[LoisB]

I saw this documentary on Nova where this art dealer found what may be a DaVinci. He bought it for a piddly $20,000 (relatively speaking this is like a .25 for a DaVinci).

Anyway, I've been struggling with this idea that my husband could abandon my daughters and I and leave us with nothing to exist on financially and otherwise. He really left us with nothing. And, his parents, who were in a position to help, didn't choose to help...instead, they joined the Heather-bashing train too. And, abandoned our kids, made things harder for them...when they could have been supportive and made things easier. They chose not to.

And, I guess there will always be this part of me that believes I somehow deserved it. Some part of me says, "See? They knew your real worth. You don't deserve to be happy or whatever..."

Well, that's when I remind myself of the DaVinci.

Plenty of other art treasures have been found in flea markets, attics and the garbage. People toss aside priceless treasures all the time. And, just because the treasure gets a bit battered or sits in the garbage, doesn't make it garbage. It's still priceless.

The problem comes when you put a priceless treasure among people who can't recognize it's value. They don't see it. I think I was under the impression that I didn't deserve to surround myself with people who understood priceless treasures. I figured I was garbage, so I surrounded myself with garbage.

You need to surround yourself with people who recognize the priceless treasure you are.

And, please, please, fill your ears with positive messages right now. There have been times when I've kept my earphones in my ears with Gospel and sermons playing 24/7 just to keep the negative thoughts out. Some of the most amazing miracles have come to me when I filled my ears with God's word 24/7.

You are in the fight for your life. Keep your head up. God chose you for this battle for a reason. You must be one helluva tough cookie.