hold on! - 8

[u-turn]

I gave her a chance to tell me the truth - convoluted lies came out - she can't even keep track of her lies.

She was angry at me - twisting it to say that I will never trust her and what's wrong with me. That I didn't do what she asked years ago.

I said that maybe she's right - I cannot forget about this on my own. We cannot get past this. I needed things that you wouldn't give me.

I said that she will have to find a place to live. She said she would not leave and will not divorce me until D15 is out of high school.

I told her that I would not live this lie and cover for her and torture myself while she does whatever she wants for 3 years so she can hide the truth from everyone.

She brought up OMs feelings (OH MY GOD). I asked why the hell I would care about his feelings. This guy and W are killing my family. I said the only person I feel truly bad for is OMW and I feel that is another burden that I have (I never told her - she doesn't know). OM and my W are truly messed up souls.

It's a mess and I really have no money to get my own apartment right now. I do not have anywhere to go.

She says she is fighting a losing battle (I told her that is exactly how I feel), but here it is - she wins. I feel like I am trapped.

And then what about our kids?